Time: 10:27 PM
Place: At home finishing things around the house and preparing to call it a close on another day
Situation: My son’s name change and my feelings of being used
Reflection on the situation:
Today has been quite a whirlwind of emotions for me. It all started when I received the news that my son has decided to change his name. Which came not from my son directly to me but from overhearing a conversation. The initial reaction was confusion, followed by a wave of mixed feelings that have left me feeling used and conflicted.
As a parent, I’ve always strived to support my son’s choices and encourage his personal growth and development. I’ve watched him navigate through different phases of his life, each with its own set of challenges and triumphs. But this decision to change his name caught me off guard. It left me questioning my role as a parent and the values I’ve instilled in him.
What bothers me most is the underlying financial aspect of this situation. It’s no secret that my son has been struggling with his finances. He often falls behind on his bills and expenses, yet somehow he found the means to change his name. The contrast between his financial irresponsibility and his ability to prioritize this name change is disheartening. It leaves me feeling taken advantage of, as if he values his personal identity more than his responsibilities.
Perhaps I’m overreacting, but I can’t shake off this nagging feeling of disappointment. I find myself questioning whether my efforts and sacrifices as a parent have been fully appreciated. Have I done something wrong? Could I have provided better guidance or taught him the importance of financial responsibility more effectively?
On one hand, I want to understand and respect his desire for self-expression and identity. After all, changing one’s name can be a deeply personal and meaningful decision. But on the other hand, the timing and his financial circumstances raise doubts about his priorities and maturity.
I believe it’s important for me to communicate my concerns and feelings with my son. Honest and open dialogue is crucial for understanding each other’s perspectives and finding common ground. Though communicating with him is difficult and ends with frustration with a side of a depressed sad feeling.
In the end, my love for my son remains unwavering. However, this recent turn of events has sparked a range of emotions within me that I need to process. It’s essential for me to find a balance between supporting his individuality and expressing my concerns about his financial choices. Ultimately, I hope that we can navigate through this situation together, strengthening our bond as a family while respecting each other’s journeys.
As I close this journal entry, I’m reminded of the ever-changing nature of parenthood. It’s a journey filled with unexpected twists and turns, teaching us valuable lessons along the way. I will continue to support my son, even if I don’t fully comprehend his choices.
Emotional State: Sad, Depressed, and a bit angry
Thought-provoking question: How do we balance supporting our loved ones’ personal growth and individuality while also addressing our concerns about their financial responsibilities?
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